mah blog (=

2010-02-17T17:11:00.000-08:00

终于还是给我看到我最不想看得东西了

装什么潇洒，什么你开心就好

自己很清楚那只是欺骗自己的话

心情不知怎么形容，不过这样也好

我以没有继续期待什么的理由了

真地够了

2009-12-30T23:40:00.000-08:00

真的感觉自己成长了，尤其是在看事处事和待人方面
我相信成长不是突然或偶然的，而是在你经历不同的事时而发生的一个过程

最重要是懂得学习，没做好的事下次就把它做好

可惜的是，有些事没有第二次
错了，就没办法了
也许你给了我不止一个机会
不过当时的我正犹疑着我对你的感觉
害怕着再一次的失败
等到你走了，才肯定你在我心里的地位
我知道当时的你需要个肩膀靠，需要个拥抱
我却什么都没做
也难怪你会离开

两年了，才觉悟问题是在自己生上
本以为入伍这两年刚好能用来忘了你
结果失败了
不过看你现在过的很好，很开心
我想就够了吧
你现在的伴应相信对你很好

我知道没有你，我还是能过得很好的
不过只要我还没能忘了你，很好也会只不过如此
是有过几个不错对象，不过在你还没从我心里搬出前
我没办法和她们做任何进一步发展
就是做不到
因为觉得这样对大家都不公平吧

期待着更好的明天!
新年，新希望，新的开始！

2008-06-15T03:37:00.000-07:00

这一年因为有你，过得很开心

未来。。真的不敢也不想去想

2007-09-28T23:26:00.000-07:00

Mooncake Festival! Went Chinese Garden, this year theme is Ocean!

Yummy Mooncakes!!

CUTE SHARK!

Climed this

View at the top

After climbing! hahaha

2007-09-17T23:51:00.000-07:00

Went to see the recently famous 'monkey god tree' since its pretty near my house and i'm simply too free, LOL. I must say it does look really like monkeys, but for some reason, i thought it looks more like someone had carved it instead of a natural thing.

and as seen, its seems to be 'tamil-fied', with the red dot and white thingy

And i went to east coast to had this yesterday!!!

Tadaa~! CHILLI CRABS!!! wahahahaha

See how HAPPY i was?! LOL

Somehow doesn't look very appealing in the photos, but i swear its damn good!! =)

2007-09-04T21:39:00.000-07:00

I'm paid $72 for sitting down watching some sort of performance + free entrance to Zoo + free lunch (KFC)! Best job ever! wahaha =)

Some pictures!

I especially like this croc pic!

2007-08-31T03:14:00.000-07:00

Watched this old documentary movie called super size me, and i decided to eat healthily from today onwards! I realise i have been eating rather unhealthily all these while and i really do not wish to have so much health problem next time! More vege/fruits, less meat from now! I know it will be hard for me cause i love to eat, but i'll change slowly. But being a food lover, i shall still allow myself 2 good meals(junk food) per month! Quite reasonable i guess =)

2007-08-20T23:54:00.000-07:00

Working part time at queensway shopping center this week..very tiring! But i shall endure, cause i should be able to survive the whole coming holiday with the pay!

2007-08-14T10:47:00.000-07:00

MOVIE TICKETS FOR $6!!!

But only available for students, so those in NS or without student pass, too bad!! wahaha For more information, http://www.gv.com.sg/promodetails/gv_promotions_204.jsp =)

2007-08-12T23:20:00.000-07:00

This place will be 2 years old tommorow! Time really flies! Cleared my cupboard, threw away lots of stuff which i don't bear to throw last time, and it feels good! =)

And i realised that all my closed guys friends are still the same people over the years, but somehow females ones are like so different already! haha

2007-08-08T21:19:00.000-07:00

Any room up for rent in bukit panjiang area, $300 or below per month, for one male tenant, 23 year old, PM me!! thanks!!

2007-08-08T20:24:00.000-07:00

Was working in my room as usual this morning, then someone told me there will be one person coming for interview today, and will be doing some sort of test in my room. The door open, and this familiar looking tall guy walk in, SUNIT SINGH!!! OMG, super funny, we both were like O_O!! hahaha He's expression was like so funny can, he thought i was coming for interview too!! LOL He showed sign of relieve when i told him i haven't serve NS and that i'm only an intern. Obviously he forgot how long i had graduated ONLY. But it's quite amazing he could remember me, considering he only taught me for 1 or 2 months in sec 2?!! I knew my face is easy to remember. hahaha Oh, and its very interesting to see your teacher getting nervous over a test, sweating all over, making weird sounds like 'tsk' and giving those fraustrated expression during the test! wahaha

Tomorrow is NATIONAL DAY, holiday!!! wooOOhoO!

2007-08-06T12:00:00.000-07:00

Had Cheesy Lobster Mee yesterday, its so nice that i'm still smiling now! hahaha

Caught Alone the other day, its a rare horror movie which i thought was nice!

One more weekKK!!

2007-07-29T13:23:00.000-07:00

Went to watched S.H.E concert yesterday, the fans are really..HIGH(crazy) hahaha HebE is really pretty and cute!! Voice super nice somemore, oh my goddDDdD~ LOL

And i'm getting better at Singapore roads! =)

but..my friend ask her friend who's 20+ how old am I, his answer: 22 or above, should be older than himself -.- I was like, WTF, I JUST turn 19 lor uncle!!

2007-07-20T23:55:00.000-07:00

2007-07-10T15:11:00.000-07:00

Try this!

http://www.quest.i-poon.com/1.php

2007-07-02T20:14:00.000-07:00

Transformer is awesome!!! Great graphics, lots of actions, and is funny too!! The long minutes makes it value for $$ too! wahaha

cool building~ The real thing look nicer

Everyone has a tag! Including..

My girlfriend!! (in my dream) hahaha

Quote of the day!

2007-06-12T22:16:00.000-07:00

OHYA! I CANT WAIT TO WATCH THIS!!!

2007-06-11T22:08:00.000-07:00

Was clearing up my place yesterday when i found my CSS report book and i fliped through it. I'm pretty much amaze by myself! I think i really SLACK my way through secondary school education, and when i mean slack, i mean totally never study? Sec 1 results are okay, Sec 2 still managae all pass, Sec 3, erm, pass 2 subject? And Sec 4..

No parent signature!

I really wonder what was i thinking that time! Like totally never worry about THOSE grades at all. haha! But luckily i'm clever enough to make sure i pass 3 subjects every year, the minimium requirement to promote! Cause i think the principle is very keen to change my stream/retain me/kick me out of school. hahaha

Thinking back, i realise i got really good teachers. They never gave up of me, keep encouraging me and helping me out after prelims, give me extra tutions and even giving free books to help me. And can tell some really care lah, cause i remember Mrs Tan, i think, almost cried teaching me! She was super worried for me and i'm simply bo chup! Really greatful to them man, if not maybe i've already complete my NS and working a low-pay job now, cause i think those grade can't even get me into ITE, or maybe i'm already some ah beng on some streets!

On a lighter note, I found this photo at the cover!

Cool hairstyle huh~!! wahaha, i used to thought i'm damn good looking with it! >.<

And..

=))

2007-06-10T22:05:00.000-07:00

Ordered sakae sushi delivery today! realise they had pizzas for delivery, so decided to give it a try!

Its pretty nice! Now that's a offer where you'll get a 8" pizza free with two 10" ones, and its rather filling!! Certified by ME! hahaha

2007-06-03T13:23:00.000-07:00

This is a happy week!

2007-05-28T22:33:00.000-07:00

I thought i was unlucky to board a bus which broke down halfway today, but NO!! Because of it i got to see HER! LOL

My colleague had left last friday, so i'm working alone now. Freedom!! Maybe i will bang one of the 3 walls surrounding me or jump down the window behind me one day. HAHAHA ITS a torture to work like this!!!

Cut my hair today, its the shortest i had in these years! Looks like a secondary school ah beng now la! -_-

Farewell photos:

2007-05-16T21:52:00.000-07:00

First, there was this guy who go around the school killing over 30 people with gun.

Then, this two 15-year old girls killed their classmate just because they wanted to feel how it is like to kill someone. And which they later turn themselves in to the police because they realise their backyard is not deep enough to bury the dead body.

Now, a 17- year old boy appeared at the police station with his MUM's HEAD in his hand. Yes, he beheaded his mother.

What is the world turning into? I hope no one wants to kill me. haha

Bus rides has been pretty exciting to me these days, because i always seems to wake up on bus at totally unfamiliar places!! And because of me keep oversleeping, i've visited a few totally new bus interchange! LOL

But also beacuse of this, i've gotten late for work and also reached home very late -.- Maybe shall stick toothpick on my eyes le.

2007-04-28T16:48:00.000-07:00

I'm attatched since monday. Attatched as in my attactement, LOL. Was posted to work for the Ministry of Transport at PSA building(near Vivo that area). Work was, well, boring, but at least its rather slack. Basically face the laptop and do work for the whole day. Lucky got internet and msn to help me survive my day.

My 'office' is a very big room whcih looks like a storeroom for the company with just me and a colleague(another student from nyp) working in there. Was quite disappointed as he is an indian guy(no i'm not being racist here), because i was hoping for a pretty girl! HAHA ok, but he's a rather friendly guy lah, and he'll be leaving next month. Which means i'll be stuck in that pathetic room alone for 3 whole months. WTF, i may gone bonkers. Hopefully a chiobu will be trasferred over! hehe.

Next week is labour day, and end of may will have visak day! When you start working, its when you will really appreciate holidays! I'd been smiling silly-ly to myself since yesterday. hahaha!

views outside my office. Its at the 33rd sotrey!

Thats the old SAJC, new RV campus.

Far far away, dunno where.

Workplace, looks like storeroom right. And the laptop given is laggy shyt.

Lastly, my one and only idol!

2007-04-25T11:06:00.000-07:00

I had always lived by a rule all these years, that I will give myself 3 chances for failure. The first time may be due to lack of exprience, nervous etc, the sencond may be careless, and the third time everytime should be well done.

And today i failed for the first time. Cant believe that i failed my driving test for the 3rd time. To be honest, the first time I fail i'm already very disappointed, because i always thought that i'm damn good at driving, for some reason i'm just damn confident. I tell myself nevermind, maybe i'm really nervous, but wad this time? I got no reason to give myself anymore. I couldn't smile to anyone, lips feels heavy.

I'm a bloody leo who just cant take it when i failed myself. Anything after the third try, you are a failure.

2007-04-04T18:47:00.000-07:00

More and more friends around are smoking now, cause we are all well over the legal age. But why do they smoke, its not like those who smoke doesn't knows that its bad for health and its expensive. I've came across a few life examples, whereby it started out of curiousity, just wanting a taste of how it felt, and then what? One pack every few days. Its so real.

Yes, I DID try it once very long ago too, but because I knew i really just wannna TRY, and not other thing, cause i knew its bad for hell lot of things, thus it ended up as not only my first but also my last try. Why is it that i turn out fine and they got addicted when we started, i pressume, with the same mentality? Also, the taste of smoking is quite bad if you are not used to it, so why would someone be addicted to a thing that taste so bad. Because its COOL? Not at all to me.

I hate it when i wanted to ask my friends to quit but i just cant bring myself to say that to them, all i could tell them is just "hey, try not to smoke so much k", which i think is pretty useless? Although i hate the smell of smokes, i wouldn't despise smokers, because smoking doesn't makes them a bad guy/girl, they can still be wonderful people. But if you were to offer a non-smoker friend to smoke, then something is wrong.

Decided to start helping them to quit from now onwards,at least try, before its too late. I know its hard to quit, but it can be done.

Quit smoking is definitely much cooler then smoking!!

2007-03-27T21:52:00.000-07:00

Maybe it's really not that much of a big deal, but i'm really quite affected by it. Left me wondering what am i good at actually. And, it really does get lonely sometimes.

Ahh. Whatever it is, tommorow will be better! Hopefully

2007-03-20T08:48:00.000-07:00

it'd been quite some time since a girl ask for my number! quite pretty somemore! BUT, sadly, she's older than me, haha

and also, it'd been decades since i had a nightmare! damn scary lah, the scene of my car mounting the kerb! ahHHH! this is not good!

2007-03-16T12:42:00.000-07:00

ahh..it'd been quite some time since i felt so bad. first time i had failed when i'm THIS confident, great dissapointment! ahHhh

2007-03-12T03:26:00.000-07:00

for the past month, weekdays had been pretty exciting.

Sleep between 1-4am
Wake up between 1-4pm
Activity after that:
eat, watch tv, nap(yes i sleep real lot),sit in front of computer.
jog by myself
basketball by myself
watch movie by myself
wonder around the island by myself

HAHA. I'm quite good at self entertaining! Actually its really not that bad to do things alone, at least not as bad as i thought it would. I think if i were to be stranded on an island alone, i could survive very well!

Guess quite a number people have the impression that i'm this very happening guy, who hangs out in very cool places, or always go out and 'chiong' at night, from the questions i got from them. But they are just so totally wrong man, went Zouk for a second time friday night, and i must say its really not my type of place. What i prefer will be going to the coffee shop, order a teh-bing or milo-bing, and some snack for supper! And i will be happy enough. wahaha

Can't really be bothered to browse through the phonebook to ask anyone out, or rather if there is any. So ya, i foresee one more month of excitement ahead! leRam!

2007-02-23T13:42:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

blog entries taking a few days to appear, sms received only one day later. haha

went back malaysia last weekend as usual, everything is just like usual. but i actually got asked when i'm getting married -.- my reply was, VERY LONG. ya, people there mostly marry very young, i had a very kampung hometown. there's this aunt who's younger then me getting married next year, and she's like 15 this year? gosh. she has always been this little girl in my eyes lah, thou she's my aunt. feel so weird. everyone was talking about marriage and i was busy playing computer games, HA! like damn kiddy.

was sitting with my sis at this relative house, and i'm mistaken as her boyfriend. damn paisei la! my sis's 24 this year, i don't think i look that old ya! but cant blame them, we seldom see each other also.

simply too free nowadays, hoilday til mid april. but don't feel like working part time cause will be having atttachment from mid april to august. working life~ seems boring. and most friends now are either in the botak gang or working!

3 more weeks! and hopefully i'll be able to DRIVE around singapore by then! woO~

2007-02-13T23:48:00.000-08:00

luck super good today, play majiong tong sha(win all), keep zhi mo, and all is big big one! never had been so lucky lah..all their container were emptied- even after i loan them money.

BUT, also nothing much to buy, unless really so lucky let me find a girlfriend tomorrow~ HAHA.

2007-01-29T01:15:00.000-08:00

omg, just got to know that is very pretty tawainese actress just died from an car accident.

Xu Wei Lun. very chio right. poor thing, die so young. she's only 20+ man..

Humans are so fragil lah. I must enjoy everyday as much as i can, so that if i were to die anyday suddenly, can at least die happily! for me, the earliest acceptable age i expect leave this world is at 40+, cause at least by then will have done everything i wanted to le bah. 20+ is simply too early!! so ya..pray hard i'll be safe for at least the next 20-30years! hahaha

2007-01-06T00:10:00.000-08:00

logged in to friendster few days ago, its been a really long time since last login. so i decided to explore around, and found out how terrible i used to type

almost all the words will end with a 'x' or 'z', with those infamous mixed of big case and small case words some more, like "wHerE dO yoU wAnt gO wOrX". OMG, i am so totally disgusted by myself lah, damn gay-ed. cant believed it, and the thing is why nobody tell me about it before!!

but well, i guess its still some nice? memory. hah

'.'.' :-: ':' -·=»«=- å ðÜï ZhÅñG «Çåþ†Å‡ñ wÃ‡» -·

time to change this nick too, its done by jennifer i think, has been using it since sec2! which was like so super long ago man. this is the last year of being shi2 duo1 shui4( ten years old+) le, time to changed!

2006-12-26T23:37:00.000-08:00

was really pissed off by this whole bunch of idians on train, was happily standing in the middle of the train listening to my mp3, then suddenly this group of 20+? idians of all ages came squeezing in, and i really meant squeeze. i'm surrounded 360 degree la..NO WAY out. the young ones were like drying their hair on my clothes? (its raining outside) and the others were happily surrounding me with their oh-so-fragrant armpits. and they destroyed my hair lah. wasted my time styling (and maybe washing, lol)

and of cause, i alighted the next station =) i guess i would have been charged with murder if i had a knife with me at that time man. HAHA

had this cute little cake today. haha

thank you!

went orchard on the eve of christmas eve, and its already..

i can imagine the crowd on the eve and the actual day already. the lightings were nice, but not up to my expectation, maybe i expected too much.

watched Death Note 2 and Huang Jin Jia. Death Note 2 is great, i never had a moment of dozing off despite watching midnight show.

next up, the extremely high cost movie was actually quite a disappoinment to me. i expected lots of magnificent battle scenes, but sadly, the director is more interested in telling storied about the royal family's complicated problems.

lastly, i wondered how much different my life would be if i were to look like this

quite different eh? i guess..LOl

happy new year everyone!

2006-12-15T10:48:00.000-08:00

so many first time yesterday..though i'm a little disappointed, i've really enjoyed myself. thank you!

taken at bus stop ^^ =)

2006-12-07T08:52:00.000-08:00

ohya..do i say "xxx and i are going the zoo" or "xxx and me are going the zoo"?
haha just happen to think about it that day..ya my english is terrible!!

2006-12-07T08:41:00.000-08:00

i've kill the virus in my laptop!! hahaha super happy..spend two days fixing it!! was about to give up already..lOl so proud of myself lah

today i just donated $10 because the person asking praised me. OMG..i cant believe myself either. haha oh well..it'll help those needy people ;)

saw a big snail!

byebye!!

2006-12-05T04:59:00.000-08:00

snake!! i wounldn't dare to hold it a few years ago

Jiamin!! you are so cute la..haha first time see people role play like that man.. LOL

i'm still your gor lah..not jiejie -.-

haha..shall update next time!!

2006-11-17T10:54:00.000-08:00

sec3 xmas. haha taken with..nokia 7250! the first camera phone?
look so young..but stupid!

2006-11-12T23:31:00.000-08:00

was searching through a very old briefcase, and found these!

I was so cute!! hahaha

This is some sort of medical cert. And it actually got my sex wrong -.-.

I can jump now!!

2006-11-03T09:12:00.000-08:00

useless leg
when will it be okay!!
burden to the team man.
get well soon!
haha

2006-10-31T05:46:00.000-08:00

found out this interesting thing from my fireman friend. he said that those zapper, uh those two iron-alike thingy used to save peoples live, cannot work when there's hair. so when they went to save people, they'll carry around a shaver. HAHA and they always pray the victim's not a singh and bangalah because they has lots of chest-hair!! lOL poor thing la them, i was thinking maybe because of the time needed to shave they may not be able to get saved man.

ohya..he also said that all fire engines and ambulance are ready at around 750am everyday, because there are accidents everyday around 8am without fail. 0_O

2006-10-26T07:50:00.000-07:00

saw this vintage car today, quite like it so took a pic of it
it looks nicer in real

will be at chatlet from tomorrow til sunday, hope i can tahan~!

2006-10-22T07:31:00.000-07:00

vivo city is HUGE, but its isanely crowed..so did not went in to even a single shop. juz walked arnd..haha and just by walking around makes you get tired !

watched Death note..its a nice show!! i'll give 4/5 for it~!

2006-10-16T08:57:00.000-07:00

went to the hospital today, think it's my first time, excluding those visits of cause. and i really doesn't like the atmosphere there.

sprained my ankle yesterday, the same spot i injured i year. went to a chinese doctor, he say its to swollen and recommend me to a clinic. went to the clinic, the doctor also says it looks rather serious and recommend me to go hospital, saying that's a high chance i broke my bone. which's really scary lah.

went to the hostpital, wait wait wait, check check check, luckily my bone was not broken, was super relieve man. scared i wont be able to play basketball anymore la.

got a 3days MC, but i think by wednesday should be able to go school bah..as for tomorrow, most probably stay at home watch anime! haha

deformed!! lOL

2006-10-13T23:37:00.000-07:00

the distant we were apart is so far, and i only realise it today
like a cross
after the meeting
it will only gets further away

2006-10-07T23:13:00.000-07:00

not fated

2006-10-04T08:30:00.000-07:00

don't we look alike? loL
i must be a lion last time

2006-09-29T08:26:00.000-07:00

had this dream a few days ago..it was the most real one i ever had. it was so real that i actually tried and recall and asked myself did that happen. hah

but nah. its a dream

2006-09-24T08:56:00.000-07:00

school's starting tomorrow! ahhh

2006-09-11T08:41:00.000-07:00

911-

5 years ago world trade center is crashed.
today, MSN crashed.

of cause the first one is much more serious, but i feel more for the crashing of msn. haha ><

2006-09-03T07:17:00.000-07:00

koksin got bashed up, and handphone was stolen few days ago, while studying under a void deck. i thought singapore was supposed to be very safe. lucky other than a fractured nose, he's alright now..was kinda worried on the way to the hospital..when i heard he is in this emergency building.

hopefully that two malay get caught lah.

was kinda bored, so went fishing, and caught NOTHING. lOL nvm shall try again.

steamboat was great today. ate 5 bowls of beehoon. haHAHa

a busy week ahead!

2006-08-18T12:27:00.000-07:00

read an article some time ago, it says that in a particular country, there are actually people, who are perfectly fit and healthy, who go to the doctor for an amputation operation! be it the hands or the legs, to become a BEGGER.

its like WTF, what has the world become. so many people who treasure their bodies lost thier limbs in accidents. and yet these people went to chop it off so they could go around begging for money. surely there are LOTS of other ways to solve the problem.. even fake beggers are better than that la. i guess sometimes human just tends to seek the easy way out

2006-08-13T23:32:00.000-07:00

almost fainted on the MRT just now. lOL was actually so happy to find a good spot on the train to stand la..because that spot is so cooling, got wind blowing towards me one. then suddenly this whole bunch of ah nehs come in lah, and their smell is all blown towards me!!! aHHh..can vomit la..to think that we were still cracking some racist jokes before that. maybe its retrubution ah! haha if i'm alone i'll sure go down and wait for another train~! but maybe i can break the world record for diving under water for the longest time if this happens everyday..just make sure the crowd watch me doing the feat are all ah nehs..1,2,3 hold your breath! lOL~ i'm just a little racist

2006-08-12T00:02:00.000-07:00

a year

2006-07-28T09:38:00.000-07:00

i'll go to jail if i get into trouble now. HAHA

OLD

thanks all who wished.. quite a few very unexpected peeps suprised me. i'm touched~

LOL

played one of my best game on that day, for the 3on3 tornament. we came close agianst the BEST team in SP, very contented. couldn't have asked for more

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pride is very important to me. i'm born proud and arrogant. but you don't see it

I'M the leader of LEOs - borned on the very first day of the pack
_with an ego higher than others

do not try to test the beast within

2006-07-13T07:03:00.000-07:00

owwww..martial arts master says that the headbutt was excuted perfectly, flawless. Guess that's why he got the golden boots award, the FIFA officials are scared of him!

2006-07-02T23:34:00.000-07:00

thanks for those cute lil things

aishiteru'

2006-06-18T11:40:00.000-07:00

pringles-shaped chocolates!! very nice! bought it immediatly after i saw it..lOL its abit expensive thou..$7.30 per box. but definitely worth to try =)

its 245 am now..time to get ready snacks and drinks for the up coming match up between france and korea. haha shall become 'ronaldo' soon. HAHAHAH

2006-05-20T08:33:00.000-07:00

water, lightening, fire~

haha..maybe my hair is going to spoil soon. but im qite happy with the colour now(red)

working at holland v cold storage during weekends now, as beer promoter. ya..-.-

its not really for the money, its to keep me occupied

ohya..fuck you

2006-04-29T01:11:00.000-07:00

friends, the more the better?

my classmate ask me how i get to know so many people, cause there's quite alot of people saying 'hi' to me around. yeah. i used to like this feeling, the feeling of being 'poplular', knowing lots of people. i used to love exchanging hp no. and adding new found friends in msn n friendster, even if i just got to know them that very day. coz i thought having many friends in friendster was cool. but not anymore. wads the used.

wads more, there are alot of people whom said 'hi' to me but i dun even know thier names. being friendly? maybe. but i dun like make myself smile every here and then when i see these 'friends'. of cause, i would be more than happy to see those closer ones, others? i rather try not to see them and walk away. ya. i know. some of them will say im acting cool or dao, i dun give a damn. i wun make myself become this super friendly guy around who went around talking to everyone. let others be it but not me.

realised i've drifted apart from alot of people. but there's no one to blame other than myself. its me that allowed people to drift away, its me that did not put in effort to maintain the friendship. sometimes i think im escaping, but escaping from what? i dun know.

sometimes i felt that i dun know myself well.

i hope we'll at least get back to wad we used to be long ago.

2006-03-31T06:26:00.000-08:00

i have nothing
but self-confidence

2006-03-25T23:17:00.000-08:00

almost everyday
wake up between 1 - 2pm
sleep between 2 - 5am
wake up, brush teeth, have brunch, go out
back home arnd 10pm
tv and gaming
(with lots of eating in between of coz)
sleep

and practically i woke up everyday not knowing which day of the week is it..LOL
no choice..no one want to hire me! anyway..its abit too late now too. thou im still have half of my holidays left, i guess its not enuf for a job!

notice i said left with half instead of saying its half gone? haha there's a different actually..it shows two different way of looking at the same thing. ya and im glad that im an optimist..if not i guess i may have well i tend to look on the bright side of things..and i do have selective memory i guess..cause it seems that i remember most happy moments and could hardly remember, or rather chose not to remember things that make me unhappy. because i know its not worth it..life's so short..i want to spend it happily..and i believe mood CAN be controled. i know very well what things upsets me and im not so stupid to immerse myself in those stuffs. if not i will find something to be happy about within it..of cause sometimes mood can be out of control..and its perfectly alrite and normal feeling of humans..all we need is to learn to cope with it..and understand urself well.

mm..so wad am i trying to say? just some random stuffs i guess..haha
ohya..will be going off for chalet tml, til wed
not really looking forward to it thou, cause not really close with them
but..nvm i have nothing to do also. LOL

bye

2006-03-16T11:23:00.000-08:00

Life ish full of twists and turns will abound,
but wonders and insights can guild you around.
explore wad you may and fill up ur mind
And hold in your heart the mysteries you find.
Wonder ish only saying you yearn.
to know and select the things that you learn
and making a choice in which way you turn
The best path you take will always be right.
'cause if you were wrong,you can make it right.
each step you take when you listen and hear
will gib you more courage and freedom fr0m fear
get rid 0f ur doubts,fears and unhappiness
and you will rejoice with h0w u turn out.
and thou you may struggle and fall too.
remember that i've been there,and will always love y0u.

2006-03-11T04:28:00.000-08:00

SAW A METEOR!!

Went over to gary’s house in kota tinggi on Tuesday, with jk, hp, yf. Went for 3days 3nights..playing majiong, ps2, computer and EATING~ we ate real lot ..i swear the amount we ate isn’t NORMAL. Jk was so funny lah..looking at the way he eats make me laugh..hahaha..ohya..my luck was damn good..win quite a lot majiong-ing.. ^^gary is a good host..he drives us around looking for delicacies and some places, like museum and the famous waterfall spot over there (yes, u can get a licence at 17 over there!) the waterfall is beautiful..i did brought my camera along..BUT the batt is down…! So we took NO photos..*argh

He’s house is big..5 stories high.. so going down for dinner was tiring! (we sleep and play at 5th floor) there’s a nice roof top..very breezy at night..and has a nice view of the town and clear sky. I kinda like the lifestyle over there actually..no stress..and there’s not a rush to do anything over there.. so simple but nice..hahs and from what I know..young couples over there doesn’t break up so easily as here..alot of them usually tie the knot when they reach the right age..isn’t that nice. Ohya..on the 1st day..we had luch at a fast food restaurant whereby its chair are swing! Below is the picture

Was back in Singapore yesterday..reach home at 4 plus..took a bath..and I rush over to east coast for my ‘Star trek’..sorta a class outing..its an overnight activity..looking at the stars above using very powerful telescope..and ya..we WERE able to see venus, mars, Jupiter and Saturn! But the image is squite small..Saturn is very nice..nice planet..nice rings..hahas we also use it to look at the moon..which was much clearer than the planets..we can actually see the surface of moon..the craters all those..so cool rite..lOL and ya..i saw the 1st meteor in my life!! The meteor isn’t part of the plan..it just happen to appear and the people saw we are really luck..man..its BEAUTIFUL..though its just like 1second? Or a little longer than that..ahHHH so nice..and I made a wish..HAHA =) learn it from tv =P they say they will sms all of us next time if a meteor shower is predicted to be seen..hoho I will go!

spent some time looking at the sea..enjoying the sea breeze..and left at 7plus in the morning..after seeing the sun rise..ya its also my 1st time really seeing the sun coming out from nowhere in the sky..haha. took mrt back home and was knock-out totally seeing my bed..haha

why issit that everytime when i want to give myself a new chance
i will think of you

2006-02-17T08:34:00.000-08:00

one last post before the exams.. wouldn't be updating anytime soon i guess.

just went to changed my angbao money in ringgit with my dad..Rm141..and he gave me $150..LOL! so happy.. took my tennis test on thurs..and i think i got an A! well..luck was on my side..played much much better than my usual standard.

things are ok now..i'm glad about it..accepted it. i meant it. and ya..isn't my bg music nice? for those who never see the mtv before, http://www.y250.com/rm0927/kiss1.wmv, its nice

ok..this is surely another boring post..haha will write something better..after the exams? k..shall end off with a piece of my work.

thats all. farewell-

2006-02-12T07:00:00.000-08:00

ever find a song which lyrics just seems to say out everything you are feeling? its good when you find one..because it lets you know that you are not alone..not the only one feeling what you are going through..assure you that you are normal.

the chickens sure is more appealing than me ya..i'm right beside you but i feel as though i'm invisible. after this i dont know when will we even meet again..and all i get to see this time is just a few minutes of your back view..slowly getting out of sight.. i wasnt angry..dont get me wrong ya..anyway..hope you really like it..must smile like it more often k =)

today is the last day of new year le..though its seems like it had ended long ago..lOl this year is the so-called Fan Tai Sui for the dragons..i dont believe in these kinda stuffs and dont really know what it meant lah..just know its not something good..and mum went to get a jade rabit chain for me..which she say will help..haha i'll keep it with me lah..to keep her an xin..LOL watched fearless..the person scan me for 2sec before letting me in..i look young! hahaha finally =D show was alrite

people shldn't just say or promised things so easily..things like blah blah forever..blah blah always..unless you really meant it and very sure about it..i will try keeping on to mine at least =)

feng and shan hu hai mtv is very very nice! lOl

okay..quite long le..and i think i really run out of ideas what to write liao..happy-last-day-of-CNY people! haha bye~!

2006-02-05T05:06:00.000-08:00

this week..let me see..basically was chionging my final assignment most of the time lah..making a word game. lOL i'll see if i am able to upload it on internet for everyone to play =X..HAHA

other than that..i act Yu Sheng for 3 times! not that i like to eat it or wad..kinda scared of it now liao..hahs

yesterday went ck house bai nian first, den went over to dx house arnd evening for Vege steamboat! haha it was pretty nice..but..TOO MUCH!! eat til so super full..lOl also played abit mahjiong there..after so long..a few months? lost money! i was wearing all red and they say what this year red clashes with dragons..haha i wasn't into such stuff! i'm sure god want me lose wear what color also the same de! then went for bball, it was fun. these days very seldom play le..but i still enjoy playing it very much. its some rare moments i can totally blank my mind and enjoy myself! =D took a shower after that and went to catch 'i not stupid too' mid- night show. i'm rather suprise there's actually alot of people watching it at 1240am! it was a very nice show. at least to me..those who haven watch can go try it..hao kan! =)

had been thinking about alot alot of things..and i find myself still very uncertain about my future..the front seems to be a pitch dark..haha maybe i was thinking too much..

holiadays are coming! hahas will have a 1 and a half months break starting from 1st March..rather disappointed lah..thought it would be at least two months de lor..but because of the change of admision for the new batch of students..ahH! nvm..on a bright side..if holiday too long i also dunno wad to do lah..lOl but b4 that..it means that exams are coming very soon too..my aim..avearage of B can liao..haha time to study hard..!

2006-01-31T07:49:00.000-08:00

sorry to all those who sent cny msg to me ya..
wasn't able to reply u all..i appreciate them =)

CNY was alrite til now bah..eat, sleep and rot?
LOL~ not that bad also lah..at least the atmosphere is rather joyful
and..got extra $$!
hehe

going to rush assignment liao..i'm very dead lah..actually plan go back do finish de..but end up..did NOTHING..can only blame myself for being so lazy! but..really no mood to do! haha pray hard i can manage to finish in time!

re-watch initial-d yesterday
its still nice to watch again
song also nice
and i rmb its the last movie we watch together..

2006-01-27T07:49:00.000-08:00

Going back malaysia..

Happy Chinese New year to everyone!

2006-01-23T05:47:00.000-08:00

When we're together,
Eternity is a step away.
My love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

The treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul.
How much I love you,
You'll really never know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before.
With each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye...
Whenever we part...
I know I hold you dearly,
Deep inside my heart...

So for these seven words,
I pray you hold true...
"Forever and Always,
I Will LOVE YOU."

-do forever exist?

我越来越不了解你

Do not be puzzled within the shadow of sadness, because I'm always by your side

i dont believe in being sad

it just depend on how u decide to see things as

i dont give a damn about making myself sad

happy?

none of your buisness too

i live on my own

my peaceful world

2006-01-15T06:23:00.000-08:00

did spring cleaning today..sort of. i only help up with taking down and hanging back the curtains actually..haha dad and mum did the others of coz..and my hse is decorated with alot of red stuffs now lah! lOl and got lots of new year snacks..yumy! wahaha yay..i can sense it..chinese new year is coming! means got break + extra money!! =)

and the rain finally stop..is it good or bad? should be good bah..if not i will be late for school everyday! not because travelling problem..is because too good to sleep! lOl =D

ok..i guess i'm FINALLY over with it liao..coz i dun feel much abt anything gonna do with it anymore le..ya..finally..suddenly feel so..uh dunno how to say..light-hearted? dunno lah..haha but i still meant wad i say ya..though u may not be my speacial one anymore..but i will still be with u always..taking care of u as my sister =) and i realli do hope u can be more happy..cause i see u likedat i wun be very much happy too k. there's alot more things in the world that u can be happy about! smile! =))

mum almost fainted today while shopping alone..and she started to think too much..saying things like she may be 'going soon'..choy..i'm sure she'll be alrite..at least i hope so? if the worst thing happen..i realli cannot imagine wad will happen to me lah..go crazy? ahh..nono..shall not think too much =) ohya..mum bought wei lian(project superstar winner) album..she's a great fan of him lah..hahas i knew she will buy it..coz she like spend quite some money to vote for him a few mths ago? lOl mm..not bad lah..his song all quite touching de. yup guess thats why got so many supporter bah.

i realise..gaming isn't that bad after all..it helps to distract u from all ur problems! haha uhh..cant think of aything else to blog liao..update another day bah..bb

2006-01-15T06:11:00.000-08:00

lady lady one more try
再试着了解我的爱
发不出声音的感慨
选择作朋友的无奈
lady lady one more try
提醒我何时该走开
只要你偶尔想起来
我就住在那片海

我在你身边给你一点点愉快就会心甘情愿回到大海
我输得彻底把脸深埋在水里面却还要演好这一场戏

我早该知道你终究不是我该爱的人

2006-01-11T04:42:00.000-08:00

yesterday was cool. not becoz of the weather..coz celebrated ks bday in quite a speacial way..haha =) to sumarize everything.. we faked that js was knocked down by a car and all of us rush to SGH immediately to find him. and gave him a suprise down there when js suddenly pop up with the cake..lOl that scene was funny. luckily i can say..most of us have rather good acting skills..ks say he quite believe actually..but he began to suspect abit becoz jk was abit to idiotic on the way! HAHA~ but the whole thing succeed i think..coz ks say he like the whole thing. so happy lah..plan so long if fail rather sad leh..coz thinking that most of us will be spending our 21 bday in NS(sad case)..shall make 18 a more memorable one?

lOL man..cant believe it..going to turn 18 this year..so soon..18 like sound rather 'old'..i mean grown up..i dun like it! hahas maybe somehow i will end up studying overseas alone? it sucks la..nvm. shall not think that far! (or issit not very far already?) mj was rather funny lah..had a chat wif her recently..realise she actually think about alot of stuffs in the future. suprise me..make mi suddenly realise i never realli gave much thoughts about my future..so much for being a soon-to-be-18. haha and i seriously think you will marry before me..wahaha.

was pretty touched by jas..altou hadn't been veri much in contact wif her..but she seems to appear everytime i was down. 'i will share any problem u have with you'..thats wad i told her few years ago..and she told me back juz that. haha thx mei.

ok..shall say a big thank you to jiamin oso..haha coz i read ur tag i oso wan laugh le..and believe it anot..it make my mood better! lOls u are so very funny lah..thought u say u changed alot le..but i see like still the same leh! so..zhang bu da? haha! =X juz kidding..

suddenly feel like writing about the common god bro/sis relationship in teenagers.. wad is the real different between it and other frenz? for me..a god sis will be someone i specially feel like pampering more..wan to care for more. and will care for. juz that. and no other intention.. =) but i can see there's actually quite alot of ppl who juz have a god sis/bro for the sake of having one. uh..oso dunno wad i'm trying to get to..nvm. juz some random thoughts. =D and for brothers..actually i damn care abt them lah. juz nv show tt much? wahaha but of coz. i still care abt other frenz ya..=DD

finally finish typing le..quite long bah i guess.. haven been updating becoz of the weather! hahas coz got the habit of updating only late at nite..but the weather so nice so i chose to surrender to the zzz monster instead! muahaha! shall end here..bb!

爱与被爱不一定成正比;
以为在你身边那也算永远;
可惜不是你
陪我到最後
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你
牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔;
那一段我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权力关心你
可能你已走进别人风景
多希望也有星光的投影;

if only those words are meant for me-
我除了不想
还能怎样
我早已没权利问这么多；

2006-01-09T06:29:00.000-08:00

moving on

2005-12-31T22:54:00.000-08:00

enjoyed new year eve =DD

ytd went watch movie wif mei n jie~
uh..rather lame la e show..but at least quiet funny =)
den went walk arnd
actually i quite feel like playing tt bball de..but since mei dun wan
suan le bah. lOls

after tt jiu head to orchard met up with the guys
went eat first
den head 4 esplanade!
mm..veri crowded la..as usual..but i think better den last year le
saw quite some funny people here n there *oops lOls
saw weichong from juidui superstar. he was like..parading himself? haha
reach there..and begin barganing prices for the sprays
weijie do e job as usual lah..haha
everyone got two in three in the end.
2 ribbon n 1 foam de
but its too lil lah!
saw quite some familiar faces here n there oso =)
and there was juz some many man taking advantage of girls lah..so obvious
esp ah nehs! hahas maybe i'm a lil bias againts them =)
but not us of coz!! =D
and none of our ppl bring gf along lah..
clever people =D
so things get quite mad when it strikes 12. when the fireworks came
(i did video the whole fireworks wif my phone..so long lah..hand tired!lOL)
spraying time!! haha
damn fun..all of us were aiming at ppl face lah
ya..directly into the face!
their reactions is so funny lah..HAHA
but due to lack of 'ammo'
all of us ended in pretty bad state..HAHA!
all so dirty lah..but realli its fun..had to describe it here lah
ohya..there's tiz grp of girls who keep on following us after the whole thing
they keep asking where we wan go den wan follow us go
even when we made it so obvious we are not intereseted lah -.-
'noe' them when having fun spraying arnd bah
they give us quite some xtra spray oso..but we nv force them! lOl
think they sec3 or 4 bah.
but we are juz so good at dao-ing ppl lah
so no choice they had to go seperate way =D
after tt jiu take night rider home
man..53 stops! haha
noisest grp on the bus lah
everyone else was like slping?
but hey..its new year rite!
hahahas..and reach home at 3am =D

looking back..
i dun thing there is a day i am realli happy since tt day
and if u realise.
since tt day..we are both not doing veri well
a wrong decision?
i dun wanna think anymore
tho i got lots of qns tt i wanna ask u
i guess suan le bah
wads past is past
i CANT changed anything now
coz i'm long gone in ur heart
replaced-
maybe not even someone impt to u already
i dun wanna think abt it ANYMORE

guess i begin noe wad u meant le
coz me had oso start to lose faith in love
scared to love
becoz u cld juz forget me so fast
and fill it up so quickly wif him
dun worry..wo mei guai ni.
realli.
i dun beleive love has right or wrong
i'm juz a lil disappointed
我想我以没勇气去爱
希望你们会有个美好结果
我祝福你..
coz no matter wad
u are still someone impt to me
i still care for u
wish u can be happy this year =D

i juz wan to be happy everyday now
i hope so
hope i can realli move on
i shld make it =)

2005-12-30T06:39:00.000-08:00

原以为我们有了约定
就能够听见朋友祝福的声音
还来不及和你
和你在一起
数着天空里坠落的星星
你已经离我而去
爱没有继续
原来我根本不是你的唯一
还来不及和你
和你在一起
记住属于你的一点一滴
你已经离我而去爱没有继续

我紧闭双眼摒住呼吸
根本就不敢在夜里想你
醒了我都不会挣开眼睛
是怕泪水慢慢吞噬心情

我留给眼泪不能呼吸
我无法面对最后这个结局
谁会想到曾经相爱的人
还没到最后我们对爱已经无能为力

我选着不管这么多

不想这么多

也还是选着了相信

会有那么一天 =)

a new year is coming..shall to a sum of of tiz year! haha..mm tiz year is very memorable for me lah..happiest and un-happiest thing oso happen tiz year..uh i think thats all le? haha!

ok..something else..i think the serious-ness of any problem really depends on how you are going to handle or think about it..if u keep on brooding over it..den gone-case le..u will be thinking bout it alomst every minute of the day( i'm NOT exxagerating) hahas..but if u can juz do other things n dun go think bout it tt much..and i muz emphasize that you shld not try to force urself not to think about it..coz it will onli make u think bout it MORE. mm..if anyone can get me..good. if not..nvm. lOl the best thing is to carry on wif ur life veri normally. also. i find that it doesn't realli help much if u find people to talk about ur problems..becoz most probably u wouldn't think much abt their advices..at least 4 me lah..but it does help to find someone to juz have a nice chat wif u..to calm u down and distract u from it =) wadeva thing it is. life stills goes on. and never. NEVER think about ending ur life. coz its foolish.

hahas..tts all for now bah..preetty look forward to tml! =) lOls

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! =DD

2005-12-27T07:52:00.000-08:00

对你的思念
是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦何时才能出现
亲爱的你好想再见你一面
秋天的风一阵阵的吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候
没有说一句话就走
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多
你却没有感动过
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原来我们的爱是那么的脆弱
我还天真的以为它能克服一切
培养这么就的感情却比不上他
我了解爱不能强求
但这感情脆弱地令我惊讶

2005-12-26T21:51:00.000-08:00

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天才终于发现自己是白吃
我惊讶的是情话竟然会变成谎话
but i refused to blame u

[[两个人的回忆
雨过之后更难忘记
忘记我还爱你
你不用在意
流泪也只想刚好而已
我早已经待在谷底
我知道不能再留住你
也知道不能没有骨气
感激你让我拥有缺点的美丽
再说我爱你
可能雨也不会停
就让回忆永远停在那里

2005-12-26T01:45:00.000-08:00

so today is the day..the day which i used to so look forward to

the day which i thought i will be veri happy..with you

i never doubt that we will have any problem to cross this one year mark

but i seems to be so wrong

how many times had i keep myself occupied with tons of things

only to find that you will still appear in my mind in the night

all i am left today..is a heart which stills refused to give up

a heart which stills loves you

loved you for a year

happy anniverssary to it =)

Xmas was fun..i enjoyed it. with the usual guys. we stayed over at ck house. played games. played mahjiong. played some prank call? . eat and talk real lot of rubbish. we had not changed ya. all these years. lOL. if onli something else doesn't change. if would have be wan mei le. =DD

2005-12-24T06:16:00.000-08:00

夜里传来雨的声音

轻轻拨动心的旋律

情不自禁想起你

那些甜蜜的回忆

总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛

爱情需要一些呼吸

偶尔保持一点距离

回到朋友的关系

任你自由的来去

从此想念你只能放在我心里

你还爱我吗

一直好想问你这句话

却又怕听到你真实的回答

你还爱我吗

为何你总是不说话

眼看我为爱不爱挣扎

你爱我吗

好久没有你的消息

心里还惦记着你

在这冷冷的夜里

感觉那么的熟悉

好想再见你想听听你的声音

感情的路总让人好无助

我会学着面对独处

给深爱的你祝福

一直好想问你这句话

却又怕听到你真实的回答

你还爱我吗

这是我唯一的牵挂

不管你会有什么回答

我会一直等你

你还爱我吗

thx for the day

its my best xmas present le

to spend the day wif u

to do so many things together

and go all the places we used to go

i've enjoyed myself =)

你依然那么可爱 XD

原本想给你个拥抱

却没有勇气说

MERRY X'MAS TO EVERYONE!! =DD

2005-12-21T08:42:00.000-08:00

we won 68 -25

but i dun think we play well

hahs~

我相信找不到有比你更好的人

你心里理想情人是几分

是否也会有我的份

好想知道你的100分会给怎样的人

你是我的100分

2005-12-18T11:25:00.000-08:00

watched king kong..its a nice show! great graphics..and its 3hr- long..most value for money le! lOls sounds so cheap skate =X learnt a lesson today..i shall never watch a movie on the first row of seat..had to sit real down and tilt my head real up to watched..and so nice the show was so super long..my neck almost crack when the show end lah..hahas

suddely realise there are alot of rich people in poly..who juz seems to have to much money to spend(not me of coz) having alot of gadgets..such as high-end mp3, portable hardisk, cameras, expensive handphones.. and some of them spends over a hundred buck juz for a mouse..? are these realli neccessary? i mean does that few hundred more dpi of the mouse make a huge different? and thats juz one part of the computer ya..i tink the amt they spend of the other parts are hard to imagine..lOL one thing tt distract me most is that some people get things which they dun realli need at all..for eample i got a classmate..he owns a 60GB ipod lah..cost around $1000 when he bought..and he store juz arnd a hundred songs in it? and i realli dun understand y he wan to buy a $100 thumb drvie when he already got the ipod. im not jealous seriously..juz cant stand tiz kind of ppl..they juz wanna get the best of everything to show off..zzz i rather spend the money to eat..HAHA! and got tiz guy who lives near me..everytime i happen to see him when going to or back from sch..he will ask 'wan take cab bo?' idiot..

another thing..i dunno why..i realli prefer to take bus or mrt and walk alone..esp in the morning..i dun mind meeting some close frenz to chat wif along wif along the journey..but i realli dun like to take wif someone not-close(not all of coz)..becoz it will either be we have nothing to talk or that person will talk too much which irritated me..lOl i still prefer to listen to my mp3 and sleep! hahas dun have the urge to make lots of new frens anymore..like exhanging email or hp no to chat.. used to..but not now..dunno why oso..i did know alot of new people lah..but i did not went further to noe them much..i dunno why im likedat now oso..

it'll oso be rather hard to see me 'online' now if any of u happen to realise..i will always be 'busy' or 'away'..even if i'm not..becoz it'll be an excuse for not replying when ppl tok to me..somehow..i juz dun wanna tok to them(but most of the time i'm realli away and busy! so dun get the wrong meaning when i dun reply!)..and i chat online much much lesser le..think i'm evolving..to anti-social? hahahas..

these few days happen to pass by alot of places we used to went..lots of flashback..of wad we used to do..ji yi zhe me neng shou wang ji jiu wang ji~ andimissyou

人不要为明天而烦恼，该想明天有多好 =DD

2005-12-14T06:21:00.000-08:00

lost da bball game in knock out stage today. play til so lan. my fault bah~

i'm doing veri well..too well that i 4got i'm not

i noe i noe.. i shld juz keep on tiz way

but i realli dunno how long can i last

u stole it, return it

2005-12-13T06:07:00.000-08:00

i din noe tt da frisbee game got such a medal! lOls its silver~ =X

wah today wake up earlier in the morning..daddy come gib me $$!! wahahahs..he strike 4D..$5k =DD lalA~ suddenly become rich for xmas! today went ck hse with jk..so long nv go le..haha had fun there =)) ohya~ saw a dead bird with lots of red ant crawling over it on the way there! we see le 1st reaction is 'ahHHHHH..er xin!'..den both of us jiu take out phone take picture of it and keep luffing! so funny lah..lOls

look kinda fake hor..hahas kk tts all le bah. bubbye!

2005-12-11T05:36:00.000-08:00

hoho..finally back here to update! hahas had been pretty busy in sch..reach home everyday arnd 8 plus..bath eat watch tv jiu sleep le..so no time update ya..lOLs mm..shall start off by thanking hs mei for doing tiz new layout 4 me!! hehes thankiew!! nicenice wor~ hahas

ok..let me recall..mm i played the 3on3 bball tornament in sch tiz wed..and we make it to the top 12!! =)) -8, 8-5, 14-4, 10-7. 2wins 1 draw 1 lose.. veri happy wif da result le..lost to a sch team..we could win actually..haha nvm shall not tok bout it =) was so happy nor..lOls play so long bball le but tiz is one of the best time i played..coz i realli played as a team..its da 1st time tt scoring was not on my mind at all! all that on my mind was juz for my team to win! hahas long time nv play until so shuang and happy le~

uh..oso went to watch my sch's talent time finals(a scaled-down ver of superstar!)..wah..most of them can sing realli well lor..and the event looks pretty grand i muz say =) ohya..siewlee was in! wahaha i was happily laughing away when she sang..coz it juz feel weird to see ur fren sing on stage..like so different lor..but she sang quite well lah..juz action abit funny? HAHA! and the good thing abt our sch is tt we go watch the event can get CCA points! lOls..not bad hor.

fri while playing lan in computer lab(haha)..jiaming called say someone wan to see me..he like sound so serious lor..i tot someone wan see me bu shuang den 'kidnap' him leh(realli!)..so i went over immediatly.. turn out i was so totally wrong ya..lOls its sinyee~ haha..felt abit paisei leh..coz i was like wear until so sloppy tt day! hahahas but it was nice to see ya! =D

ytd went sch for da ultimate frizbee competition..for some reason i turn out to be da captain lah..dunno why..lOl its fun..but kinda hot thou..den was supposed to meet jie and mei to take back my lappy at 1230 de..but the event drag until so late lor..so kept postponing the time..i was feeling so bad and guilty lah..but my teamates keep asking me to stay oso..lOls so in the end i help bring my team to the finals! but i didn't played for the final game..coz gotta rush over meet them =))..feeling veri bad and guilty once again..for not playing the final game..haha! i haven ask bout da result..but at least likedat means my team is either 1st or 2nd..which means sure got medal and $$!! hehehes =)

ohya..i changed my hp last week..and ALL my smses were gone somehow..was pretty upset lah..but..tts nothing i can do ya~ so i think i'm fine le~ =) big thankiew to daddy lah..like since graduate from css hor..i ask for wad he oso will buy for my leh..maybe its becoz sis already working le and bro is in NS now bah..lOls but i shall not ask for more things le..shall not waste money..i'm veri fortunate le..got alot of things le..hahas

nxt week having quite a few test! ahHH..nvm i can do it!! muahaha..and after nxt week jiu holiday le!! yay!! but onli two weeks lah..and its after holiday jiu immediatly exams! zz..loLs nvm i shall enjoy myself first! laLa~

2005-11-27T07:33:00.000-08:00

阿杜 - 下雪　

就快要下雪

心开始凝结

该怎么迎接我们最後一个圣诞夜

我害怕下雪

爱将会冻结

因为你说过

雪让人有等待的感觉

说好二个心要乘著雪

相约在那拥抱的季节

冬天来得太狼狈

爽约了诺言

白茫茫的世界碎成雪

所有快乐都已流成泪

而我一个人面对

整夜的心碎

白茫茫的世界碎成雪

所有快乐都已流成泪

而我要怎么面对

整夜的心碎

tiz song is so bei shang! hahas

2005-11-26T08:36:00.000-08:00

我已经渐渐习惯忙碌把生活填满和自己分享晚餐试着活得更理所当然

i'm back! hahas..mm these days everyday oso quite late reach home..reach home eat, bath le watch tv awhile, read newspaper, use com awhile den always when i wan to update de shi hou i will veri tired feel like sleeping.. den will tell myself 'update tml bah..'..lOls so drag until now~ had been busy wif club de things..bball and some assignment bah.. not bad lah..at least keep me busy..hahs mm..dunno nxt week or nxt nxt week will have 3on3 and inter-club de bball match..but i think sure postone la..coz always rain nowadays..hahas and dunno why dun realli feel like playing neh..but will still still try play my best lah~ =)

i realise tt most ppl who play bball ah..will be veri proud n arroagant when they are in sec sch..dunno why oso..me myself oso likedat de..i last time used to think im veriveri good le..den veri juai one..hahas i think most ppl oso likedat de bah..its onli til last year end or tiz year den i realise there are too much ppl better den me lah..so i changed le..but hor..i cant stand ppl being arroagant in front of me! will try to win lah..but if cant win de i nothing to say lor..lOls

my fren said something which i find quite funny but true..he said 'if i suddenly die in my room, i dun think anyone will noe'..hahas he's a malaysian and he rents a room here de..den i think..quite true leh..i think if i suddenly die..other den my family..noone wld noe bah..lOls but at least im better den him ya? haha! =X im juz crapping~

ohya..i joined tennis this sem..wah..its quite tough de wor..harder den i tot..i always tot u could play tennis if u could play badminton..but i was so wrong lah! lOls..this week first lesson..den the coach wan grp us into 3grps by a trail..hit few balls see standard lor..i was the 1st one! hahas..first ball was totally off la..but lucky nxt few balls not bad so i got into 'B' grp..train 2hrs..improve a LIL bit lah..hope can play well soon..=) got one ball i hit damn far lah..dunno ball fly til whre..den the coach juz shake head say..'veri lang fei leh..' haha!

my phone having alot of problem now..always auto off den keypad not sensitive le..dunno wan change phone anot leh..coz change means everythings inside will be gone..but there are things tt bu she de delete inside..lOls so shld i change or go repair..shall think for some more time bah..haHA~ den i these days eat veri fast leh..faster den usual..i ate finish..and my plate was clear b4 my frens even got their food to the table..lOls den even start eat together..i will finsih when most of them juz ate half..and my amt is more den them de..coz i will jia mian or jia fan one..haha! i noe quite pig lah~ mm.. den today pei ser go dye her hair..end product quite nice lor..and tt idiot fall in love with her hair..lOL! better rmb my money and my meal! hahas k le..update quite alot le..somehow summarise my week le..hahas shall go sleep now..bb!

2005-11-19T09:16:00.000-08:00

finally realise things anit the same anymore le..i dun have the right to care so much anymore..and u doesn't need reply me anymore..time for a change ya..yep i acccept it already..but please be happy ok..coz i woundn't be happy if u aren't..so please make me happy..hahas went to dye hair today..hahas ya finally went..u used to not like it..but i guess its alright now bah..lOls..mm end product was not bad =) actually color is quite bright de..budden likedat maybe alot of people will wan beat me up..HAHA~ so make the colour duller le..wah jk de hair is cool..white+yellow+abit red/brown? hahas but makes him look abit older tou..lOL~ mm..taking part in 3on3 bball competition in sch..hahas yup thats about all le bah..bye!

2005-11-13T05:47:00.000-08:00

lalala~ today woke up feeling veri happy! haha! dunno why oso..juz plain happy =) loong time never feel so good le..hehes ytd daddy help me upgrade my lappy de RAM..hahha yay! now play most game oso almost lag free le..daddy wan sui! hahas so in return..today went to watch movie with him lah..with brother oso..wah bro looks veri muscular now le..he wear his shirt like so tight now..haha! so went watch tom-yong-goon(duno how to spell) is daddy wan watch de..hahas but it turn out not bad..at 1st it is onli a not bad movie to me lah..den later sis tell me tt all the stunts the lead actor do insde the show is real de..and no stuntman is use..i was like..whoaA! tt guy is daRN good in fghting lor! hahas realli..unbelieveable..if got money dunno how to spend can go watch it lah..hahahas den these few days started to play game again le! hehe..and the new need for speed: most wanted simply rox lah..so nice..but now onli got demo version..full ver will be out tiz week! lets play together! wahhaas..so high today =X kk..i go le..bubbyes!

huizhen: thankkiew! hahas take care ya? =)

minmin: hahas..but i no money wor..10cents can? LOL!

dajie: hahas..thx dajie! i will de!! hehes ok~ *smiles..aiyo..u are so coOl n dao wor!! =X hahas

zd: LOls..yalor! im so disappointed! hahas

sinyee: nothingnothing~ haha! juz try not to drink it k..lOls =)

Jasmine: me toO!

jes: hahas..thx bingren! yup me will cheer up! huh..go bedok wif him meh..lOL! =X ya..he's lame. oOps!

j-k: hey mr chan..so free come here ah..no nid prepare teaching materials for ur students? lOL!

2005-11-12T22:53:00.000-08:00

也许你不知道我依然没变

就算我们相爱是意外

又怎样爱本来就是这样

怎能轻易说忘记就忘记

我依然相信我们会有未来

就算只是用来欺骗自己也好

至少我能活的开心一点

i failed..sorry..

i cant find something happy to blog about..

i failed to make tiz blog a happy one

laugh at my foolishness..

i dun care how ppl see me anymore

2005-11-06T07:52:00.000-08:00

ytd went worked for pokka again..haha and we had fun! =X i can onli advise everyone not to drink the 500ml pokka green tea in these 2mths ya..we did something to it lah..shall not go into further detail why..haha! not bad..got $72 for ytd..hehes =) ohya..forget to mention i met someone who did a double-handed dunk when playing a match wif us..damn coOl..i was totally stunned by him..i muz jump higher!!! it's so coOl to be able to dunk lor.. lOls but i manage to block him once~ laLA~

pat lend mi his portable hard disk with all the photos when we were sec3 n 4 inside..hahas so memorable~ hao huai nian those times wor..lOls all those photos so nice lah! i see le keep laughing =) and i think my hair last time were realli funny! hahas how come noone tell mi b4!? =X hahas time flies..i hope it will slow down abit..coz i dun wanna grow up so fast! haha! juz dreaming lahh.. tt's all le bah..jay's new album juz rox!! =))

2005-11-04T08:42:00.000-08:00

tiz is so funn..hahas juz when i was all rdy to get on wif my life. god was so kind to arrange me to help my frenz settle thier problems..the same kinda problem~ ya..got two couple..both also faced parents problem..same reason..xxx is a bad guy~ oh yes..and i was there comforting them? comforting them while my heart was aching? lOls but i think i did a good job..somehow..both chose to face the problem together lah~ i'm happy for them =) and something which realli make me kinda unhappy is tt my fren parent dun like her to hang out wif me and my frens often..and its becoz of our lOoks again..even if we juz went for a bball game~ but they actually allow her to go out wif some guy alone til quite late..and tt guy is for sure..i swear not someone good..but he does like some good kid..i mean da face..WTF~ ahh..nvm i juz nid a little xtra time bah..

will be working today..so gonna slp soon le.. mm..i hope the nxt entry will be something happier..yupp tiz shall be a much happier blog from now onwards! =))

2005-11-02T23:00:00.000-08:00

ytd finally log in to frenster..hahas so long nv log in le..it had changed so much leh..lOls had been avoid loging i becoz of something..but finally..finally i went in and delete those things le..they shall onli be kept for myself i guess =) yup..and i went through ALL my testimonals..man..time realli flies..and lots and lots of things had changed i guess..the first few was written in year 2003..ahh i was sec 3 den..and sec3 seems so long ago to me now..lOls those testi somehow summarise different stages of my life..where every staged i had different ppl being closed to me..so gan dong when i read some of them~ lOls of coz there are some whom had been veri good with me all the way til now ya..my good brothers =) to everyone who've enter my life..THANKS ALOT!! it is you all who colour my world..hahas ^^

in these few years..i made lots of frenz..i rmb when i was in lower..i think the onli ppl i noe are my classmates and my primary sch frenz..but when i reach sec3..i suddenly got to noe alot more ppl ya..dunno why oso..but i'm glad i did..and i noe there are alot of nice peeps arnd me now..i think i shld be more den happy le.. i shldn't complain so much anymore..there are many many more ppl who are in much much worst situation den me..i'm veri veri fortunate already =D suddenly realise in a veri near future..i will be going to serve the NS soon..den after tt..i may continue on studies and go work le..everything is so fast..i dun wanna grow up!! veri soon jiu going be an adult le..hahas..ya..i had to agree schooling time is most prob the most happy times of one's life le bah..although there may be stress..its realli the part of ur life which u shld cherish most and enjoy most! so to everyone out there still schling..please rmb to enjoy life in the mist of ur mugging ya..lOL~ so tat nxt time when u grow up and look back will smile! study is impt..but it is not Everything ya =)

will i continue waiting.
i dunno.
but i wun accept anione
til a day when i wun think of you
anymore
if not it wouldn't be fair to her
=)

2005-11-02T06:19:00.000-08:00

i hope u wun mind when u read tiz entry~

juz wanna say a realli big thank you to you

giving me such nice memorises

i dun think i'll ever 4get them

since u made a decision already

i trust u made a good one

realli hope u will achieve wad u wan

which i'm confident u can

i'll be okay..i guess =)

u dun nid to say sorry at all

thanks..alot alot

HUISHAN

*i love you

2005-10-31T08:48:00.000-08:00

dun worry..wadeva it is..

i will Respect ur decision..

juz follow ur heartt.

be true to urself.

2005-10-30T07:56:00.000-08:00

i shall wait..

this shall be the turning point of my life

be it good or bad

i'll face it bravely

i anit gonna run away from it anymore

2005-10-29T08:30:00.000-07:00

i've break down once again. i juz cant keep on like tiz any longer.

for the whole week..i had not been going home early..earliest was 10plus. its not tt i like going out or wad..it is becoz i noe when i reach home early, when i faced the four walls at home..i will think of u. i tred my best to occupied myself with lots of things to do..its does work while im busy..onli to realise i'll miss u even more when i get home. i've tired to make myself tired..so tt when i go home..i can juz sleep and wait for a brand new day. but how i noe i can miss u still in my dreams. today played bball. i played well. but so wad? i got no one to share it with. i tot that if i leave u alone. you will be better. i tot i could take all those pain for u. and that u can carry on with life happily. but it doesn't seems to work. why. i realli wan u to be happy. to have a smile with u always. juz how can it happen. tell me. i'm willing to do anyting for u. and i mean it. but why i juz cant seems to help. i wanna listen to ur problems. to help u with them.but i'm afraid i'll end up making u worst. i wanted to tok to u. but i scared u wldnt wan to. why issit tt i afraid of so many things. i've realli changed alot. since that veri day. i dun find gaming fun anymore. i dun enjoy watching tv show tt much anymore. my appitite drop. i dun chat so much animore. be it sms or online. i'm not tt frenly animore. my phone is not with me all the time anymore. it used to be 24/7 with me. but now. its juz lying on my bed for most of the time. for i dun nid it tt much as b4. i dun yearn for it to vibrate or ring anymore. coz i noe it wun be u. i wanted to asked u out. but u juz seems to be so bz. bz with ur frens. ur sch work. and i'm afraid u wun wanna go out wif me. anymore. and i seems to have nothing much to look forward in life anymore. all those plan for our future. seems more like a dream now. everyday seems to be the same. i wake up thinking of u. and i will find ways and do things to not think bout u for the day. im realli tired of it. i cant take it anymore. tiz had to have an end. i rather let u hurt deeply once more. den to be tortured everday. i've gonna try no matter wad. i cant be bothered anymore

2005-10-28T10:01:00.000-07:00

doesn't tiz juz look like my bike? i've check on it and i'm quite veri it WAS mine. hahas saw it locked at some railing when i was rushing to da bus stop..quite suprise man..den ran to the police post and the police there told me to call 999 coz she cant leave the place -_-" so i called lah..first time call tt number! it was answer after one ring lah..fast..but i waited 15mins 4 the police to come! oh ya..when the police ask "wads ur name", i replied "WAI!"(why)..den suddenly i realise she may tot i was asking 'why'..so spell out W.A.I..den she say..''oh..mr wai'', hahas happen few times le =X while waitng the OWNER came back for the bike lah..den i went over say "wait 4 police come, i think tiz is my bike" lOls..he was an uncle lah..i think 40+..at first tot indian..but he tok chinese wif me..so i dunno lah..hahas he is like so guilty likedat..coz he keep on explaining its his when i said nothing..so i juz told him "i nv say u stole wad~" den he quiet le..LOl den police came..long story..in the end is..i have no enough CONCRETE evidence..so da bike still belongs to him..zzz and when i ask the police wad is an example of concrete evidence..he cant tell me..and his attitude was not good to me lor..the tone he tok and his expression..like dun like me likedat..tok to tt OWNER jiu like veri kind..WTF~? b4 he go still tell me wad "the bike is still his now ok? so tml or wad if u see tiz guy better dun go beat him up ah" i'm pisssed off by him~~

after tt jiu went queensway go shopping wif some peeps =) tiz week went work for pokka for two days nite shift..got $124! hehes..quite easy money lah..onli last part ver tiring..i carried 800 boxes of 1.5l carrot juice which weight arnd 18kg each!! hand was so tiring! but nvm..i treat it as a training for my arm..biceps now pretty hard le! Xp and ya..i went to pre-order jay's new album le!! got his poster..hahas yequ is so nice (=

it has been a loong time since i play computer games, or watch some drama shows..dunno wad had i been doing oso lahh..times flies when u do nothing! hahahas think i'm getting used to boring and lonely lifes le..haha! i think i can now rot on my bed for the whole day and wun complain! lOls

mm..here's a game i made for my assignment..http://bugs1site.tripod.com/OOPG_Assignment/classes/GameApplet.html hahas..go try!! although simple game..but veri hard to make already! took one month to make wor..lOls mm..anione can get over 1000 score. get a scrnshot show me i treat lunch! hahas no cheating hor..and rest assure i've programme it to be playable to over 1000 de =) so dun worry..enjoy! lOls

issit so hard to get back things that u've lost? yup..it is..but its not imppossible. i've not given up on the bike..and i've not given up on u too. =)

i wan to share everything
everything tt happen to me with you
happy or not happy
i got lots of things wanna buy for u
wanna tell u lots of things
but u weren't there..

好想再次的疼你.爱你.保护你
`but will u give me the chance to do so..darling